God and Evil

This class is kicking my ass. I'm doing really well in it as far as I know, but damn. It's everything else about it that is dominating me. This paper was due at 6PM, but I can't stop rewriting it, perfecting it. I doubt I even did what I was supposed to do with it. But a few anxiety attacks later, I don't really care. I am putting a lot into this and it's not even that big a deal grade wise. This is more than a reflection, this is taking two works and creating my own. This is my answer to theodicy at this time. This a masterpiece.

Why?

There's a cold rift there. For sure. I can't make sense of any of this.

And why did I keep hyperventilating last night as though I was being smothered? Honestly, what is wrong with me?