Failure

I can't seem to go more than two days without being a fuck up in some respect. And then people wonder why I'm suicidal. Because I'm never enough. Because I'm always letting someone down. Because I have been reduced to something so insignificant, I really don't matter. Everyone can tell me I do all they want, but until that's constantly shown, I will remain resentful of myself and. on occasion, of them too. This is massacre of emotion. I am worn down and beaten up with no point in trying again. I give up on life. Maybe next time?