Thinking

After some thought, I think I get/got insecure about Rachel's past because I wished I was part of it. I was just jealous that those other guys got to be where I most certainly could have been and would loved to have been. Knowing just how wonderful she is and how much I love her is what made that difficult. Knowing I could have totally done that but so much better. Plus, literally spending my entire life with her would be awesome and something I always wish I had. Regardless of what Rachel says about her as a child, I know I would like her. Rachel is just a naturally amazing individual of upstanding character. You can't learn her inner beauty. I will just have to settle for being with the most amazing woman I will ever know for the rest of my life. The late start wasn't ideal, but better late than never.