Wishes

I wish there was some way for people to understand what goes on with me everyday. What it's like knowing that I could wake up tomorrow as a completely different person than I was today and I can't do anything about it. That I don't see and experience life in the same way. That I'm not as happy as I seem or even happy at all sometimes. What kind of battles I fight daily to live a normal life. I wish people could understand these things. If not to respect me, then to at least cut me some slack.

I still have days where I don't want to wake up. I still have times where I want nothing more than to run away from everything and start all over again. I still have times where I consider killing myself. I can't stop this. I can only deal with it as best I can.