Up and down...

I am lost once again. I was fine until Brad came into the picture again. Just one talk about our past and a slip with his name instead of brag and I was gone. Finding out what he did to Rachel for the last two years of their relationship kills me. That anyone would tell someone else they love them and sleep with them while dating someone else is terrible. To sleep with both in the same night is even worse. I have such an anger through me about him, I can't help it. I hate him and wish him the worst. He's not even human. No one deserves to be treated like that, especially Rachel, who is so sweet. I can't understand any of this and it infuriates me. I wish she would have left him sooner. I wish I would have said something to her our first year together at work, effectively removing him from the picture entirely without any of this pain cause to Rachel and I. Someday things will be simple.