A Possible End

Last night was not what I was hoping for. Rachel telling me that we are over forever was a major surprise and it hurt to get it through text message. I figured something like that was worth at least a call. That aside, I reacted like a dick and I'm embarrassed about it. I was out of line, rude, and not what I expect from myself. I will eventually be able to inventory emotions before letting them loose.

After having some time to think things over, my resentment has died down severely but the pain lingers. It sucks for me, but at the same time, this is Rachel's wish meaning it must bring her happiness and that's all I could ask for. I wish more than anything I could provide that happiness and we could spend our lives together still, but I know she will make someone else's life too. Nobody can ever leave as positive a mark upon my life as Rachel has. She is perfect for me, I regret not being that for her. Regardless, I will always love her and I hope we can still be best friends and help each other through life.