Leaving

While smoking with Matt and Mike today, Matt commented on how he wished he was on a plane going somewhere as we watched one fly overhead. It was in that moment that I realized how nice it would be to finally be out of this city. I know I go through phases where I want nothing more than to run away, but this time I really meant it. I will do my one year of hard time and finally rid myself of all this pain. I will get away from Sigma Nu, from Valpo, from Indiana, and enjoy my life. My cancers will be a thing of the past. I will find people who enjoy life and want to share that with others. People who are comfortable with themselves. People who can honestly love and be loved. Until that day, I am stuck here. I will prevail. I have to.